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December 13, 2012 Comments Off I have tried very hard this year to get my act together and be excited about the holidays. I plastered a smile on my face when the kiddos wanted to assemble and decorate the Christmas tree, when inside I was really dreading the task.
I put the holiday music on and let it blast through our central speakers and was mainly annoyed with the noise instead of enjoying the simplicity of the words being sung.
After the children were bored of decorating the tree I didn't even finish with the remainder of the decorations, as I would normally do. I put an entire tub of decorations back in the basement because I simply was not up to the task of putting them all on our huge tree. I actually tried to talk the children into letting me purchase a much smaller tree. Which they all absolutely would not agree to.
I've baked 160 cookies so far this year and didn't even let the children eat one because they were all for someone else. I have yet to bring out the holiday cookie cutters and let the kiddos have a flour filled afternoon. We have not even created our gingerbread house this month and it is another task that I am rolling my eyes at even to consider doing.
I ordered lovely Christmas cards and they are simply sitting in the box still. I have yet to address any of them. The girls asked me if the could stuff the envelopes and I let them stuff what they wanted and the rest are just sitting and waiting for me. I can't bring myself to even look at the table they are sitting on any more.
I've purchased a few gifts for the children, but my heart is simply not in the right place right now. I can't even begin to think of tackling the stores during the holiday rush. It gives me a headache to even consider it.
I'm waiting for the spirit of the holidays to find its way into my heart and I don't know if it will arrive this year. What the heck is wrong with me?
Reader Comments (10)
Nothing is wrong with you sweetie! Some years it just takes a little more time. I stopped our schooling a week early because I just needed to get a relaxing Christmas. I didn't want to do one more social obligation. I just wanted to sit by my tree, a fire, and watch TV. But even still, that's not Christmas. Maybe a good reading through Luke 2 would be a balm for a weary soul.
Totally get it....Christmas is a lot of work for us Mom. Hope you find some time to enjoy it!
Tiffany
PS: the dresses are Old Navy, toddler sizes.
I'll be praying for you. It happens to lots of people this time of the year. Talk to your husband maybe he can help.
By the way, these photos are beautiful!
Thanks for sharing with Foto Friday,
Lori
I'm really sorry you are in such a funk...it seems that slipping into one at this time of year makes it even worse. Hoping that the love and joy of the season show up and surprise you in the best possible way!
Oh I remember this so well... Christmas had become such a chore for me, the joy had completely gone, it was just hard work and stressful.
In the end the key was simplifying things. I realised I was just running round trying to do thinks that didn't really matter. I stop sending the HUGE pile of Christmas cards I had ended up writing each year and also told the children that Christmas was about the people you spend it with and the fun you have. We agreed on less presents in exchange for more time together.... Christmas is special again. I am glad I made the big changes I did.
Mollyxxx
All the hard work, effort and grumbling was worth it. Your tree is beautiful!
Absolutely stunning photography ~ sending you lots of healing hugs ~ to help you find the joy within ~
(A Creative Harbor) aka artmusedog and Carol ^_^
So beautiful! Love the look you have!!
Sorry :( I hope the magic of Christmas returns soon! I usually have a hard time getting into the spirit but for some reason this year it's been easier for me. Beautiful pictures, as always.
It just happens some years. I'm in a tiny bit of one this year. Mostly just being lazy. I have hardly done any shopping, and usually I am finished WAY in advance of Christmas. DEFINITELY give yourself a break....it's okay to not do everything....totally okay. :) I would buy some store bought dough for your kids....bake some of that up....sit on the couch with a bunch of funny movies....and relax. :) If by Christmas Eve you still don't have many gifts....buy gift cards. Who doesn't like gift cards. :) Taking bubble prayer baths helps, too. Soaking in a tub, and talking to Jesus...yup....doesn't get much better than that.
Hoping you feel better soon.....a new year is coming..... :)