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TIARAS

Sassy Redheaded, Tiara wearing, No Tantrums Allowed, Marshmallow Momma to 3 gorgeous children whom I love to the ends of the earth and more.I am just a woman who is a little bit girlie, a little bit naughty and completely divine. Living the splendid life! At Tiaras & Tantrums you will find me . . . just me, being myself, without judgment . . . and loads of reviews & giveaways!



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« Discovering Where I Want To Go »

DateThursday, October 23




Discovering Where I Want To Go

I've always been the type to love lots of things. Change my mind, move on quickly. Life is just so rich in things to do, people to know, places to see, things to achieve. How could I ever settle for just one thing, let alone a few things?

I had a big imagination as a kid and I guess I still do, though it has, of course, turned a little more jaded thanks to grownup-ness. I wish I had access to that color again. The brightness . . . the newness of everything. The sharp, accessible memories that are now only evoked by smell or sudden remembrance – all too fleeting.

Keeping a blog is a personal thing. What has been on my blog is to share; to give others a taste of me. We love to share journeys, us human beings. We love to relate, empathize, sympathize, vicariously live or envy or even trample through others. (don't we all read perez.hilton) Whatever makes us feel better, valued, informed, empowered. We like to feel the extremes. Words do that to us. (at least they do to me-isn't that why we blog?)

It took me awhile to start a blog. I lurked about many blogs for months and months. I read many shiny blogs. Shine people, shine! It is your right and your obligation. So now I hope I am writing a shiny blog. What is so terrible about shine? We need to lift shine, encourage shine, multiply shine.


I have been so many places in my life. (not just on an airplane) In my heart and in my head. I have been the little girl. The older girl, the lost girl, the teenager. The driven college student. The college graduate. I have been a salesperson, a nanny, a waitress, a Gloried Secretary, a Financial Analyst. I have been a friend, a sister, a lover, a cheater, a saint, an ex-girlfriend, a bitch, a mistress, a fiancee, and a wife. I have been true and false and candid and guarded. I have been the abused, the abuser, the laugher and the laughed at. I have been confident, terrified, exuberant and despairing. I have been lifted, exalted and shamed, revered, adored and shunned. I have soared and crashed, risen and failed. My life has been one unholy joy. Terrific and shattering, pointless and superb. It is always like this and always will be. The roller-coaster ride is how we feel alive.

I am a Mother.
I am a Wife.
I am a Woman.
I am a Person.

This life is discovering who we are amongst the chaos and the change. It is sheer bliss that sometimes smarts. And one of the greatest joys of it all is the love we give and get back. Falling in love, watching my children grow and learning so much through them, reaching forward while hauling along the past and watching bits of it fly off in shards and chunks as I go. The freedom of seeing it fly away and how light I feel. Discovering where I want to go, and how I can get there with my family and friends tethered faithfully to my side. Learning to let go. To move on. To trust or not to trust and learning that this is okay. To protect myself and demand the best for my own life and that of my family.

It has been a challenge but a joy. I have lost much, given so much, received and achieved much more. But let me tell you… when you get there – when you find your path… my word. It is good. And you then spend an inordinate amount of time wondering what the hell took you so long to get there. How you wasted so much time, so much energy, so many thoughts on *BS* when it could have been so focused . . . so much time gone . . . .but here we are.

Now, for the blog journey. There are many different things on my blog. Perhaps some memories. Maybe some crafts or cupcakes Then maybe some day to day additions – bits and pieces. Nothing that matches or color-coordinates. Just ramblings. Mostly about my kids, sometimes about food, my challenges, my joys. Lots of deletes.

I am not particularly academic. What I am is clever and driven. What I am, too, is a regular woman who is living my passions, squeezing out my talents and loving what I do. We all want to inspire, so sure – I hope I inspire you. For that is the reason I’m sharing it. I'm shining now (I hope).

AuthorTiaras | Comment3 Comments |

Reader Comments (3)

I absolutely LOVE this post!
Fabulous!

March 25, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterSnarky A.

Your thoughts are so absolutely beautiful coming from someone who is so much younger than I, I am sure. Very introspective.

March 27, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterCindi ~ Moomettesgram

I'm a day late, but Happy SITS Saturday Sharefest!!

Happily, I've found a new blog to follow :D

December 13, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterBabe_chilla

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